Friday, November 05, 2004

DiSSaPoInTeD

I'm very upset now....i've been tinkin abt this for soooo many days....and i juz can't get it off my mind....a couple of days back...i chatted wif a fren....she's not juz any fren...she's someone who means the WHOLE world to me....
seems like nowadays whenever i msg her...she's like sooo...ermmm..how shall i put...it's like she's nt interested to talk to me...all our conversations will be cut short...i've no idea why....she's only actin like tat to me....she'll hang out wif the rest but is never too bothered abt me...haiz....why...why ME!!!!??!!!.....
Even a couple of weeks back...when I met up wif her & some other frenz...she like didn't even know of my exsistance...i was the one who had to ask her what was goin on......when we meet up...it's a norm to like hug each other & stuff like tat..it's like a gals ting...but when it came to me...she totally didn't even look me in the eye......when i asked her abt it
all she cld say was..."oh..no lah.....i forgot.."....NO!!!!! What forget....bloody hell...i was sitting next to her....so she can talk,hug,buddy-buddy wif the rest but negleted me ah.... the other day i cried my lungs out juz tinkin abt it...she's always tell why i never talk to her or like meet up or msg her...but it's nt that i never....it's more like it's nt enff 4 her....don't know wats the reason for the her strange behaviour....i try soo hard...really hard to keep her close to me coz she's a really special & wonderful pal.....i can't bare to loose another dear person in my life...i've suffered enff for a 18 yr old gal....can't handle no more....
shessh...u may tink i'm makin a HUGE fuss out of this...but u wldn't understand....she's really close to me....or at least tat's wat i thought so....oh man....i really want to give up hope already....i don't know wat to do....she'll always talks abt the future...how the whole bunch of buddies will stick together forever....seems like the "whole bunch" has excluded me already.....ahhhhh....i really don't know wat to do....i don't know why pple juz can't respect or treat me right....seems like fate wants me to live my life all alone....guess i sld start my training to become a NUN...hahaha....

WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 7:57 AM