Sunday, January 29, 2006
BeTtEr MoOd!!!!!!!!
Alrighty......after a couple of "sour grapes" blogger entries.......here's a.....erm....not soo ANGRY or SADISTIC one............let me wish all my Chinese Brothers and Sistas out there............HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!!!!!!
(*woof...woof!!!! tryin to give the doggie sound effect lah...LOL*)
Anway......today i headed down to my perriyama's (*it's the indian way of callin my mum's eldest sister*) house.............i was a lil hesitant to go there.....afraid tat i might see her cry and i can't tahan tat.............but thankfully.......it was ALL cheers for every1 there.........i met up with 2 of mum's younger sisters and my cousins priya,anil and shantha and we were all delighted to see the JOY on my aunt's face........... i mean she was like all CHEERY and was soooooo HAPPY tat we came over to visit her........it was like a SURPRISE planned by my aunties and my mum......... all of em' cooked some really mouth watering vegetarian dishes for my perriyama and 4 those tat was at home with her too..like her daughter, son-in-law, my granny and her eldest son's family too...............it was good to like CHIT-CHAT with all my aunties, uncles, my granny and not forgetting my absolutely GILA cousins.....who just LOVES to bully me........ehhhh not FAIR leh...............always wanna pick on me............and always wantin me to CRY infront of em.....sooooo bad u know!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhhh............. but i laughed soo hard...till my mouth hurts............i LOVE my family!!!!!!!!!!!!
well all in all........today was a great day.........i think i can sleep a lil better now knowing tat my aunt is feelin a lil better............. i heard from my mum tat she still like will wake up early in the morning thinkin tat she needs to like wake up my uncle to bring him for his regular check-ups...haizzzzz.........i guess it'll take time for her to like really HEAL u know.........get wat i mean.........?? Okie......gtg...........i'm having soo many pple msging me on MSN now......abit difficult to blog anything now........ahaha...........SAYONARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 9:35 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
ToUgH cOoKiE!!!!!! YeAp TaT's ReNa!!!!!!!
Since my last entry..........i've been getting numerous calls, sms, and pple msging me on MSN........and yeap....it's ALL concerning the recent death of Uncle Samy..... and seriously....... from the bottom of my HEART....... i wanna thank EVERY single one of u sweethearts out there...who've showered me with your deepest concerns and ya amazing words of encouragement............ i really (*multiply by 100*) appreciate it............ i know i may have totally FREAKed some of ya out....and i'm sorry 4 tat............i just wasn't in the right state of mind....tat's why my voice sounded shaky and i cried over the phone.......... SORRY for tat yeah.........I realized something abt myself in the past couple of days.........something tat most of my closest frenz always tell me....... wondering wat that is??? i'm a SUPER DUPER tolerant girl..... pple can just keep yellin at me or really testin my patience and really pushing my buttons....and yet....i'll never say anything back.....i'll just be COOL & CALM...............hiazzzzz..........a couple of VERY insensitive pple has been doin just tat..............one from work(*the one who must nt be named*).....and.....the other....i better not mention it.....afraid tat the person might be reading this...........i don't wanna make matters worst btw the two of us...as i really care and love that person dearly.........These 2 pple in particular has really be annoyin the living CRAP out me..........one...who takes me for a FOOL.......and i've to listen and do watever tat person say......i can't have things done the way I want..... i've to be like a freakin SHRINK to em'..... but NO one ever bothers to listen to wat RENA has to say.........always chucking her to one dark corner.....And the other person...........HA!!!!!!!! tat's one hella hurdle every waking day of my life.........always pickin on little..little stuff i do and say....... WHY??...WHY??........am i NOT worthy of the GIRL i am..........i am NOTHING to YOU??!!!!!! why can't these pple understand me?? i'm NOT some kindda DOORMAT of urs to go steppin ALL over me!!!!!!!!! i may say tat i HATE you............but honestly.........i CAN'T do tat............i can NEVER do tat............but u'll never know it..........i guess u refuse to believe it............Being a freakin tolerant gal ain't sooo good after all...........i guess it's my STRENGTH and my greatest WEAKNESS...............and i can't seem to change tat..........tat's just who i am.........leave it...or hate it..........i DON'T CARE!!!!!! my ability to tolerate sooo many things in my life ain't the only problem tat i have.......OH YES!!!!!!! there's another one too......... i'm a MASTERMIND of hiding my feelings............esp when i'm really upset with a person or in a particular situation......i try not to show it...... this became VERY obvious to me when a dear fren of mine pointed it out just a couple of days ago..............she was like "Rena....i know u're hurting inside soo much...esp with ya uncle's death....why are u torturing yaself like tat...pretending tat everythings alright.....tryin to crack jokes and makin others ard u laugh...when truly inside u're not feelin too good...why gal??.....it's okie to cry ya lungs out......it just may help...u're always doin this....nt just in this instance..but on several other occasions too...wat's wrong with u??" when she said tat.....it really really hit me hard............i guess i tend to hide ALOT of my feelings coz with issues such as death of a person or any problems tat i'm facing.....i don't wanna tell others....afraid tat i might spoil their mood or like piss em' off....i don't want to trouble others with my problems.....get wat i mean?? but tat doesn't mean tat i KEEP very single stuff to myself..........i do share it with some.....only a certain few.....and those are my TRUE FRIENDS............& thank GOD for pple like yaself......i really don't know wat i'll do without u gals..........For now..........i'll just be the TOUGH COOKIE tat i am..........i'll try my best NOT to let those insensitive pple get the best of me..........and once again...i would like to THANK all those who have been there for me.......and helpin me get through this....LOVE U.........CHEERS MATE!!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 9:44 PM
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
It HuRts...ReALLy rEaLLy Bad!!!!!!!!
Okie.......if you've been after a really great week or day.........pls do not read the following....as it may....no...no....it WILL dampen tat spirit of urs...........and i'm really serious abt it...so don't say i didn't caution u b4 hand aite......... i'm only writing this...in hope tat at least 20% of the burden tat i'm carryin will be off........(*Breaths in & out heavily*)Alrighty...here it goes........... i know for the past couple of days or even weeks.......i've been acting really really strange......and it's ONLY coz of something tat has been troubling tat lil mind of Rena.....(*pauses to think 4 awhile as to wat to type*)..........it's really hard for me to bring myself to even type abt this...but wat the heck...........i'm goin to do it anyway........... My most BELOVED uncle.........has passed away on 24th Jan at 6.49pm..............due to a heart problem tat he had for years.............my uncle's a really FIGHTER man!!!!!! what really shattered my heart into a ZILLON lil pieces was tat....just 4 days b4 he passed away....ie. when i got tat call from my aunt sayin that uncle Samy was in the hospital..... i had a terrible feelin tat some ain't quite right.......so my whole family rushed down to SGH's ICU ward in the Heart Center block............i said my prayers all along the way...until my bro and i both stepped into the freezing ICU ward........The moment i saw him..........i tryin my very best not to tear....i don't want to let him see tat i was very sad.......the thing is.....was tat he had just came out of the operating theater after a nerve wrecking 3hrs surgery........and yet...he was wide awake, joking & laughing with my bro and i.....he told us both not to worry abt him....and told tat his name is not in GOD's list yet..............and my bro was sayin tat "Heaven's fully book.."........my uncle started to laugh.... as for me....it took sometime for the words to come out of my mouth....i was a lil scared....and i didn't know wat to say.............knowin tat i was too quite....my uncle diverted his qns to me....... he was like......"How's sch gal........?? don't worry too much okie..... getting a job for a smart gal like you wldn't be a problem....somemore...ur daddy knows soo many ministers....don't worry ahh...." Then i finally spoke......i told him tat i've join the Young PAP grp and i'm sure i'll work hard to achieve both my parents and my goals....... and wat he said after tat.....would have been the last few motivational words tat Uncle Samy told me.... he was like..."Rena....tat's good really good....not bad ahh u.....i know u can do it...." WOW!!!!!!! the joy tat i experienced tat moment was...erm....i can't even put it into words!!!!!!!........... i told him.............. "I'll see u soon.....very soon Perriyapa (*means eldest uncle in tamil*)......my bro said the same.............and my uncle kept tellin us......don't worry....don't worry kids...... and he just kept talkin and talkin......there was a couple of times when i nudged my bro...indicating tat we sld leave.....coz i really didn't wanna disturb him.....as he had just undergone the surgery and i was afraid tat he was in alot of pain....... but no....he just kept talkin...and jokin with us.............never for a split second...did i think tat...tat will be the LAST TIME EVER tat i wld have spoken to one of my FAV uncle.......haizzz.........he's such a strong man.....wat an amazing person.............The reason behind me mentioning how strong and wat a fighter he is......is tat he has undergone sooo much pain and suffering for years........my dear uncle was one of the first few singaporeans to undergo a heart transplant...and i can clearly remember when he did.....as my entire family was praying tat he'll survive tat transplant......tat was on 24th Dec 1992............ and praise the LORD....coz after he had tat transplant......he was quite active and was very athletic too.....maybe it's coz the heart tat he got was a teenager's and most imptly....he determination to survive for as long as until he saw all his 3 three children get married and see his grandchildren too..... and i guess GOD heard tat prayer of his.....coz.....he managed to do all of that b4 his time.....I've like got soooooo much to talk abt him...he's super funnie.....caring for every single niece & nephews of his.....and not forgetting the love he showered on his 3 grandchildren.....Boy!!! i can go on and on abt him.......Ha!!!! two weeks ago...my parents,bro and i were watching my bro's 21st birthday party.....and we were like sayin tat Uncle Samy was such a good sport....coz during one of the games.....he kindda played a trick on all of us....hahha.....it was a funnie sight......i guess i have tonnes of pleasant memories of him..........esp when i was a lil kid....i use to frequent my aunt's hse as it was the opp block of mine (*for those who have came to my old hse....u remember those short hses tat i always use to point at......& tell u guys tat my aunt stays there??*)......i miss those days where i stood at my kitchen window....ard 5pm plus.....waiting for uncle Samy to park his car and look up and see me waving at him frantically.....ahahah....i'll never forget those days......it's like every time....right after getting out of his car....he'll surely look at the direction of my block...and wait for me to yell...."Hi Perriyapa!!!!"....LOL....and of course....he'll wave back with tat classic wide-eyed smile of his.......now tat's wat i call priceless memories!!!!!As much as i HATE to say it......i'm glad tat he has reached the arms of GOD......he has done his fair share of good to others....he was and still is a NOBLE man......i LOVE u uncle Samy...... May u rest in Peace......Now the tough part.....is tryin to slowly let go of him.......the pic of him lyin motionless in his dead bed....is still in my head......i can't seem to get it out of my head!!! i really don't know how to move on..........i really had to force myself to come to work today.....i never talk to anyone at all...other than to mitch...durin lunch time tat is...........i just can't be the same me...i don't know how to....i need some closure........and i can't seem to do tat......help me god!!!!!!!! Help me someone!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 5:49 PM
Friday, January 20, 2006
DANCE DANCE BABY!!!!!!!!
okie........now everyone...........getcha ur big...or small ASS up and start DANCING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Woooohoooo.... I totally DIG this song man.................it's soooo FREAKING awwwwsome..........I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 1:10 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
L'AMOUR CoLLEcTiOn!!!!!!
okie.....like FINALLY i got my DREAM Handphone!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooohoooo!!!!!!!! and yesh!!!!!!! i got the Nokia 7370.......which is by the way FREAKING cool............but ahhh....being the Ding Dong Bell that i am........i'm not too sure how to use most of features in HP....like the bluetooth, visual radio...Media player..blah..blah..blah....ahhh....basically this hp has ALOT of awwwwsome features tat the silly me have ZERO clue how to use.......at least i know how to sms....but even that i had a HUGE prob.....(*Cheryl can attest to tat....LOL..sorry ahh babe!!!!!*)Well...of course it's got alot of good features coz it COST me freaking $578!!!!!!!!!!!!! and YESH!!!!!! for the FIRST time ever......... I.........yeap....Ms Rena Silva actually used her own pocket money to pay for her hp............!!!!!!!.....ahh--huh.....u did hear it right.....it's nt the voices in ya head...don't worry....u're nt tat kuku YET.......LOL....anyway it felt sooo good and yet sooo heart-breaking all with just one purchase of a hp....... well.....it felt really good...coz i didn't have to spend my parents hard-earned money....which by the way...both mum and dad did volunteer to pay at least half of it...but i told em' i wanted to pay for it all on my own........(*didn't have the cheek to ask em to pay lah....they're like payin 4 alot of others expenses tat my bro & i incur*) and finally i can say tat i've got something of my own....now tat's my pride possession......(*last time use be my hair....ever since i got it perm and coloured..spent alot on tat too...but not as much as this hp...LOL*)However...on the flip side..........once i paid 4 the hp.......there was this enormous HOLE in my bank account..........i feel sooooooo poor now..............sob...sob......i'm sure alot of u can relate to tat.....been there...done tat ahh?!........but i've to comfort myself.....it's a GOOD long term investment..........and if u don't think it is...........HA!!!!!!!!! Like as if i'll give a RAT ass!!!!!! it's still MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahahahhha.......okie....time for me to get out of here.....today my dept....there's only ONE fully equipt and knowledgeable staff ard.....errrr......i wish i cld say tat it's me...but it ain't....it's my supervisor Joanna......all the other 3 staff are on leave and MC.......as for me.....lucky i'm not doin the front desk anymore....or else i'll be DOOMED!!!!!!!! but i still help joanna out to do the bookin and answer the calls...or else she'll go BONKERS...LOL......
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 1:42 PM
Friday, January 13, 2006
The ElizabethTown Journey.........
Last night...i watched the movie Elizabethtown starring Orlando Bloom and Kristen Dunst..... it may appear to be like one of those lovey dovey flicks...but it sure ain't............abt a year ago.....i remember writing the synopsis for this movie in my blogger..... for those u haven't read it........well too bad....All i wanna say is tat i recommend this...to all who think that they're life SUCKS......take a VERY good look at the character Orlando plays.....Drew Baylor.....once a rising star at a leading athletic shoe company, he was being fired due to the overwhelming failure of his design for a sneaker and results in his company losin over millions of dollars and in the process the Co. suffered because of the fiasco.(*Look out for the openin scene when Drew walks into his office...darn funnie...he kept sayin "I'm fine" like soo many times.....Alec Baldwin plays as his BOSS...so can only imagine the amount of sarcasm used on Bloom's character*)As if that wasn't bad enough, things get even worse; Drew receives a phone call from his sis informing him that his father has passed away - and now, he must get on a plane for Elizabethtown, Kentucky, to retrieve his father's remains.(*mind u...this is right abt when he uses a rather innovative means to commit suicide...freakin funnie....more like super nut-case!!!!!!*) On the plane ride, Drew meets Claire, a very talkative flight attendant and unstoppably positive young lady who changes the course of his life and turns it 360 degrees ard.(Kirsten Dunst's role....was a lil annoyin in some scenes....u'll know wat i mean when u watch it*)Anyway...it is in Kentucky that Drew comes to learn the breadth of his father's life and his own family roots. Drew, with the help of Claire, submits to discovering the possibilities for his own destiny.(*This is where the story coincides with the AMAZING soundtracks being played in the various scenes....it's soo perfectly matched....it's hard to really explain it and put it into words.....basically.....watch it....and know it......oh...by the way.....Susan Sarandon plays as Orlando Bloom's mum in the movie...her character...ummm...a lil neurotic....*)It's a must watch also becoz it's directed by Cameron Crowe.....awwwsome director.....and oh!!!!! i had no freakin idea till i saw the credits tat Tom Cruise is one of the 3 producers...though i don't quite fancy him....i think this movie sld be on every1's list to watch.....worth it.....and i'm sure Cheryl will second tat.........
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 3:25 PM
Thursday, January 12, 2006
FuNniE rEpLiEs!!!!!!!
Alrighty......this is kindda funnie......... U see...after lunch today.....i got a SMS from a fren of mine...and it read as follows:"If you could steal 1 thing from me...What wld it be? A reply is a MUST. Send this 2 all your pals and u'll be AMAZED at the replies. But...must reply to ME 1st!!!!!!! HeHe.....Its interesting :-)"And yeah...i did reply my fren saying tat i wld steal HER....hahahah....and she answered back sayin she was already stolen.....Guess wat i replied??!!! i told her tat.....in tat case...i'll steal the person that stole her...wahahahha.......Anyway....the funnie part came along when i forward tat msg to all my frenz......My...Oh....My...!!!! the replies tat i got......totally made me laugh hysterically!!!! (*mind u...i was still at work.....imagine the look on my colleagues faces...they're probably goin....."Umm...i thought Rena was only a Lil GILA....now confirm...Certified Nut-Case..."*).....wahahahha.......anyway....here are some of the funnie replies i got from my frenz and cousin.....The First one to reply was my beloved fren.....Yixin.....Yixin: Umm....I'll steal ya boobs!!!!!! hahha.....nahh...i'll steal ya brain!!!!!...hehehe...:)Me: Hahah...funnie man u..........Then the next was Mr SuperNovaKarthik: I'll steal your wine bottle.....Me: Oit!!!!!! i'll smack your head first(*actually since he never state that he wanted the wine in the bottle...i don't mind if he just stole an empty bottle of wine...hahahha*)Following tat was a reply from my cousin ShantiShanti: I'll steal ur HAIR!!!!! ahahhaMe: My Wat?! Sweetie....why of all things my hair??!!.....Hahah.....funnie man u......Shanti: Hehe....i like your hair wat....the colour and the curls....Me: LoL.......u ahhh....cute gal.......After her was my super LOONEY buddie...ShyShy: Yours eyes!!!!!! Bloody gorgeous la....Ha!!!!Me:Gee!!!!!!!! thnx gal.....Well.........i got alot more other sms.........but i guess i'll share it with u guys some other time yeah...gotta get back to work.....byeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 2:30 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
BaD....BaD me!!!!!!!!!!!!
RENA'S BEEN TOO MOODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry.....but i ain't got the mood to blog........have been feeling really crapy recently........& i really wanna thank Mr SuperNova for tryin to knock some sense into me.......Thankz Dude...........well work has been killin me...........too much stuff to do.....but i'm still hangin on..........i'm a SURVIVOR yeah!!!!!!!!!...............and ohhh!!!!!!!! CAN't wait to meet Ms Cherylicious (*did i spell it correctly tis time ard dear?/*) ....tmrw....we're gonna watch ElizabethTown!!!!!!!! wooohooooo................like wat Cheryl said.....i shall quote her "Move aside Kristen....& here i come Orlando Baby!!!!!!!!!!" (*sooo cheryl right?? hahahah*)...okie gtg....wanna watch news...my dad's on TV again!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 9:40 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
FiRsT PoSt oF tHe YeAr!!!!!!!
Okie Dokie........First and foremost i wanna wish ya all............................HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2006 for me started with a BANG!!!!!!....literally.........was at the Sentosa Countdown party with my super looney relatives.......had a blast!!!!!!! the music was like thumping loud.......seriously loud!!!!!!!!! it lasted till exactly 6.06am the next morning........anyway........i just wanted to pop by to blog...realised tat i haven't wrote an entry for awhile........oh!!!!!! as promised....i'll post the pics tat the SMSS hotties and i took on our night out at Zouk!!!!!!! (*sorry for the delay.....was waiting for deb to send it to me...nt her fault either*) so watch out for this space................. till then......SAYONARA!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 12:56 PM