Alrighty....my shopping mode is so totally switched on!! I mean i have purchased a couple of stuff back to back in a span of less than a week... I'm goin NUTS!! I just want to buy & buy & buy..... i just have alot of stuff i wanna get...it's almost like i can't control it.... okie maybe to a certain extend...but i guess i'm just channeling ALL my emotions in a rather peculiar manner...
You may wonder...Huh? wats so strange abt acting out this way... But u see..i'm nt the type of person tat often goes out on a retail therapy...and it's soo unlikely of me to be behaving in such a manner.... Anyway i've NOT been myself at all for the past month or so....everything in my life has just MESSED up my brain.... i just may appear to be doin A.OKIE... but i sure as hell ain't tat good after all... Gosh...Life isn't meant to be this difficult is it?? Or is it just me?? Am i THAT unlucky?? Arghhh!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 1:33 AM
Friday, February 16, 2007
Blessed with Great Friends!!!
Never thought after all the bad and horrible stuff that has been filling my life in recent months tat there will be a glimmer of hope, joy and finally some positive vibe. Now all of tat is thanx to first and foremost MS STEPHANIE.
Steph was kind enough to meet up with me on wednesday...and Gosh!! she even gave me a SURPRISE Valentine's Day gift!! Tat was soo totally unexpected!! She was like my very own date........awwwwww so sweet right.......hahahah.... (*ps: yo stephy thnx for tat delicious chocolates and tat beautiful card*)
Sometimes i think i'm the MOST cursed person on planet EARTH....coz of all the freakin tragedies tat has struck my family and i.... I mean seriously...NO ONE is as unlucky or unfortunate as i am......wat a pitful thing right...yeah i know... However, just when i'm drowing in my self-pity and locked away in my misery, TA-DA...someone special plucks me out of tat deep dark hole....some1 who's always there 4 u but u barely take notice... This time around it was my dear friend Steph. Hanging out with her tat day made me forget all my worries...even if it was just for a day...So thanks once again darlin!!!
The other group of pple tat cheered me up tat V-DAY were 3 of my new found Uni mates!! Victor, Yuan Lu & Marilyn most probably have NO idea how much they had made my day tat night when we met for dinner. Gosh all tat laughing and crazy talk really cracked me up.... tat was just what i needed...Thanx to YOU guys too!!!!
Aite....on tat note....i wanna THANK you all once again for totally cheering me up...whether it was knowingly or unknowingly... Cheers mate!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 9:30 PM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
I Lost A DeAr FriEnD.....
As the heading in this blog post states, i truly have lost NOT just an Uncle but a dear FRIEND. It's infact his 47th Birthday today....& i just can't believe tat he ain't around....
I know some of u have asked me how i feel...& i know i haven't spoken to or even replied any1 of u coz i'm still tryin to get myself together & not break down cryin...........So i thought i'll leave ya a lil video of a song by THE FRAY....coz it says EVERYTHING i'm feelin....
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 12:59 AM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
It's Been Awhile....
It’s been far too long since my last post & I apologize for tat. As i've last mentioned tat i've got ALOT to blog and rant abt....but wat i'm abt to say wld have never in a MILLON years have crossed my mind. Now just let me warn ya like i most often do when i'm abt to blog abt something unpleasant.... so here's just a disclaimer note: Do NOT read this followin post if u've had a splendid day...it WILL dampen ya spirits.. Don't say i didn't WARN u..... So here it goes:-
I know i've been ranting abt how sucky school has been...esp with the freakin partner i had to work with for my report and presentation. It was like a whole pile of SHIT....and somehow...with god's grace....i managed to DEAL with it........But NOTHING...& i mean nothing wld have and cld have prepared me for wat happened on last Saturday....for the rest of my LIFE i will NEVER forget tat day.... it was one unfaithful day tat threw every1 in my entire family off-guard. I had lost my most BELOVED UNCLE Maniam. Yesh! u heard tat right....my uncle died last sat afternoon due to HEART ATTACK....... for most of u....i realise tat as much u feel sorry for my family...u have NO idea wat we're goin through.....
You see last year ard the same time tat Uncle Maniam passed away...i had lost one other dear uncle of mine...also due to heart attack. Now i know by now u must be guessing tat my uncle tat recently passed away was already a heart paitent and it's like a family medical history tat we're dealing with. Well darlins...U're SOOO WRONG!!!!!!! This uncle of mine...unlike tat previous i lost last year..wasn't AT ALL a heart patient. It was a perfectly fit man...with no prior serious illness or any sort.....infact he's a Vegetarian & he's also a YOGA GURU......he has made headlines b4 in the newspaper abt some spectacular yoga stuff tat he accomplished a couple of years ago.
Well as i was sayin...last Saturday 03/02 my dear Uncle passed away at 3.02pm in the bloody FUCKED up NUH. Now don't mind my language but i'm PISSED beyond u can imagine coz the death of my uncle was simply due to some bloody negligence. I know for SURE tat if he was admitted in some other hospitals like SGH....he wld have at least survived. My entire family is fuming MAD coz the procedures taken in carin for my uncle was executed in the WORST possible manner. Now long story short.....those "pple" are goin to PAY for it...& we ain't goin to keep mum abt it....tat's for sure!
It's a MAJOR blow for my family coz it was just too freakin sudden & trust me when i say this...but EVERY1...from my uncle's wife to even the cleaner workin in his office was devastaed by the fact tat we are all not ever goin to be able to see my dear uncle EVER again! My uncle was a GOOD man...no wait...he was & still IS a GREAT man.....he's the type tat will go ALL out for another human being just to help em out....he's the MOSThumble,goofy,hilarious,kind-hearted man i've EVER known!!!!!!! He's always constantly makin other pple's life easier & he's just ain't got NO enemy at all.......!!!!!!!
He's really known as the 'GEM' of the family coz he never cease to make every1 smile. It's like everytime u meet him...he's always like got a song ready for u...& he'll it to ya....it's kindda like his signature move ya know........haha...i laughin now coz i can't remember all those wonderful times tat he had with my brother and i....& oh he's really close to my dad...which all the more the death of my uncle made it really hard for my dad to digest. Infact i've never seen my daddy cry and so extremely distraught. Even till this very day....he's still cryin out aloud....coz he had lost his bro-in-law & his best friend.
My mum on the other is also torn to pieces. It's her lil' baby brother that she just lost and she ain't takin it too well either. I still can remember her loud wild cry when she first heard the news. Infact she was waiting for my dad and they were rushin to the hospital coz one of my cousin's informed me earlier that day tat my uncle was being rushed to the hospital coz he was have a terrible cold sweat.
You see...just abt a week b4 his death...my uncle had a sudden MASSIVE heart attack. Now tat was the 1st initial shocker tat we had received. But a couple of days later...he recovered...or so the hospital claims...and was like laughin & singing away. Whilst tat maybe be the half-truth, coz my parents had visited him every single day tat he was there & when they had last visited him in the hospital, he was moved to the NORMAL ward just like within a short span of days from the CCU tat he was lyin totally unconscious in. I mean u tell me....how come a person with a MASSIVE heart attack be moved to the normal ward sooo fast & wait...u haven't heard the worst yet. The day after he had been discharged from tat BLOODY hospital, he had his relapse!!! i mean if those "pple" had done their job properly...my uncle WILL without a doubt be still alive & kickin!!!!!!!!! The doctor claimed tat he had 75% chances of getting an attack again...so on wat grounds was he discharged!!!!! Well apparently the fucking answer they gave one of my cousin brother tat asked the doctor said tat my uncle looked "OK"...like WTF???!!! OK?? wat does ok in medical terms mean??!! Come on lah...they were they smart asses tat said he's got a high chance of relapse so why the FUCK did they discharge him.....
I personally feel tat my whole family has the GOD-GIVEN right to be ANGRY......we all lost the ONE person tat was the HEART & SOUL of the family.I still can't believe tat he's gone...... I miss him TOO MUCH!!!!!!!