Thursday, March 30, 2006
I MiSs Me!!!!!!!!!
Oh god!!!!!!!!!! i feel like i'm trapped in my own body!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna DANCE again
I wanna LAUGH again
I wanna be HAPPY again
I wanna be HEALTHY again
I wanna be the REAL me again
I WANNA WALK AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
Why isn't god listening to my prayers........i say it ever soo faithfully ever single night...... Is he even listening?? HELLO GOD......./??? KNOCK....KNOCK!!!!!!!! U there??
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 5:30 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
WaT tO dO??
Alrighty pple.......the FINAL grads are out.........and TADA!!!!!!!! Guess wat........LIL Ms Rena....didn't get the grad she has been expecting......Okey....i can clearly see right now tat ALOT of u are most probably rollin tat eyes of urs...careful ahhh...don't get ya eyes stuck...... Well honestly.....i wasn't expecting Straight A's..............i know some of u can't seem to swallow wat i'm sayin.....but it's true..........anyway...i only did only ONE module....to obtain all the 25 credits.....but nonetheless.......i WORKED my ASS off to do ALL the numerous reports and went to work every other single day...ON TIME!!!!!.....i'm sure a couple of u are very well aware of how much i had to struggle at work.....with the countless discriminations i had to go through and all the "DIRTY" job tat was needed to be done............i still DID IT.........with a ZEAL.....Well yeah i did take a couple of days off......but that's coz i had to make soo many trips to the hospital and had valid proof......so why the HECK did i get such a low grad........and thanx to that BLOODY grad........my FUCKING GPA has dropped...........i had such a damn good GPA last sem...one tat ALOT of pple who have wished for (*sorry....i'm not tryin to be boastful...i'm just tryin to make a point*)..........and now.............it's gone....ALL my hard work has gone down the drain..........flushed out thanx to just ONE grad!!!!!!!!!!! U know how fustrating and disppointing it is......it's bad enough having gone through soo much physical pain....now the MENTAL pain....OH LORD!!!!!!!! can someone SHOOT ME!!!!!!..............some of u have been very nice to me and tried ya best to cheer me up and offer ya words of encouragment..and god bless u for tat...thnk u so very much............but on the other hand.......some of u................GOSH!!!!!!! some of u are SUCH freaking SNOBs............... SHIT u!!!!!!!!! u're sooooooooooooooooooooooooo demoralizing..............and u're sooo mean too....... Hiazzzzz.......... i really have no words to say to u pple............... TRUST ME!!!!!!! i'm no where near the word "JEALOUSY"...........it takes alot for me to get jealous of u......so PLS!!!!!!!!!! go try and play ya freakin MIND-GAMES on some other FOOL.....................coz i ain't no dumb-bell......... buzz off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PHEW!!!!!!!!! okie now tat i've let it all out...........well.....guess wat's done is done..........NO POINT pondering over wat i cld have done differently...............guess it's MEANT to be...........i really...and truly BELIEVE tat GOD has a plan for me...............Watever tat might be...........guess only time will tell..............I HAVE FAITH.............tat's more than enough............and i pray tat it'll take me somewhere............somewhere tat will lead me to the next phase of my life.......... GOOD GOD!!!!!!!! i've to stop worrying and LIVE LIFE................... not tat i wasn't....... just tat i've to live a better one............the road ahead ain't gonna be easy...it NEVER was for me...i'm well aware of tat........it's starting to show already............so i'm goin to go HEAD-ON......there ain't no STOPPING RENA now.........it's FULL STEAM AHEAD CAPTAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 3:43 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
I'M aLiVe BaBy!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Firstly i wanna thank EVERY single one of you that either came to the hospital or to my house or even BOTH...............THANK YOU so very much!!!!!!!!!!!! The most amazing thing happened to me on the first day of the surgery..........GUESS WHO came to visit me.....and mind u tat person was the VERY 1st and most unlikely person i thought who wld come walkin through that door....(*Drum roll*)..............................................it was................LAVANYA!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGosh!!!!!!!! i really thought i was hallucinating.... coz it was just moments after i was brought back up from the operating theater............I WAS SOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even my parents were stunned.....nonetheless i was glad tat she came..........
Okie...gotta go.....i can't sit too long in the chair....coz i need to keep my leg elevated all the time.....and now it hurts like hell.....................anyway...i just wanted to pop by and thank you all for ya concern and prayers.................now i'm a lil...no....no......i'm VERY PARANOID abt my right knee.....i hope i wldn't need to go through it again............PLS LORD......HAVE MERCY ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 7:34 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
One LasT Song...........
Alrighty pple........i bet u has just abt ENOUGH of the Pussy Cat Dolls song on my blogger........so let me leave u wif my CURRENT HOT fav song.....it's really worth the listen...........too bad i can't see his live performance when he comes down to S'PORE this month for the MOSAIC festival...........but hey..........take a listen....to............GEEK IN THE PINK................u'll love it!!!!!!!!!! and u'll groove to it too....and ohhh listen careful to the lyrics...kindda cute........!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 7:18 PM
LaSt EnTrY...Before..............
Oh Boy!!!!!!! i thought really long and hard abt wat i'm goin to write as my last entry b4 my big D-DAY tmrw............and for the first time in a LONG...LONG time...i really have no clue wat to blog abt............... Well...........i guess i just wanna let all u guys know tat....ermmm....i won't be blogging tat often anymore...............and ummm.........OH!!!! don't worry abt me too much okie........i know ALOT of u have been praying for me and i'm really truly TOUCHED..... i do realise tat i'm BLESSED in more ways than I can ever begin to imagine..... so THANK YOU for the bottom of my tiney winey heart........... I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!And oh pls..............if guys are goin drop by the hospital tmrw or the following days....pls help me ask my parents how are they and ask em if they ate anything...pls..pls....can u do me tat favour....i know my parents too well.....it happened the last time ard when i went for my surgery....coz i know i'll be in such a DAZE...esp since i'm goin under the General Anaesthesia...which will take hours for me to wake up from........but anyway.....just don't freak out if u see me in a really horrible condition.........maybe it'll help if u guys cld talk to me even if i'm lying there half dead.........just tell some joke...or remind me of some silly thing i use to do...just keep talkin to me.........Alrighty...having said tat.......i shall BID my farewell to ALL of u darlins out there....till my next entry............GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!! This is RENA.........SIGNing OUT!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't miss me too much yeah..........hahahah....u can always leave a tag msg...i'll surely read and reply back to it.....Okie Dokie.....SANYONARA happy pple!!!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 6:40 PM
Monday, March 06, 2006
PaRtY....PaRtY!!!!!!!!!!
Phew!!!!!!! Wat a weekend i had.............Spent some really valuable time wif my darlins...though it was only 3 of us (*Deb,Sy and I*)..........sadly........ALL the rest cldn't make it.....i know some had reasonable explanation.... but some on the other hand.....just simply refused to even sms me back.............ahhh forget it lah!!!!!! by the time we ALL FINALLY have a girls nite out or something like tat............we'll be all old....wif saggin boobs and wrinkles...........LOL..............Anyway......after dinner.....deb and i headed down to MOS!!!!!!!! met up with the boys.....and the rest of the nite....was simply FUN...FUN...FUN......errrrrr.....but there were a couple of times when i did get bored on the dancefloor.........some of the guys even started to YAWN b4 11pm...hahaha............i have to say tat...not matter how much ALL the HYPE there was abt MOS....HONESTLY...i was a lil disappointed ... it really tat much of a WOOO HAAA abt the place................ If i MUST compare......wif ZOUK tat is...........so i thought i'll come up wif a comparison table.....and u can agree or disagree wif em....be my guest.......:-
Ministry Of Sound - MOS has better decor
- the bouncers @ MOS have serious ATTITUDE prob
- They bartenders can't even mix a simple drink like Vodka Lime well (*mine tasted like crap....and the screwdriver tat deb drank..tasted like FREAKING orange juice!!!*)
- Too many WEIRD pple!!!!!!!!!!! Bunch of KUKU birds.......
- Too many whites.....rather too many HORNY ones tat is..... (*& somehow..tat whole nite i kana grabbed a couple of times by my waist by those caucasians*)
- A handful of DIRTY DANCING or threesome (*Kissing tat is..*) at the Smoove area in MOS (*it's where they play all the RnB songs*)
- The main arena is ermm.....rather too spacious........deb and i had an entire podium to ourself.....and yeap.....we shaked wat our momma gave us (*wink, wink*)
ZOUK
- Despite the million dollar renovation...i think it ain't tat great
- The bouncers are much friendly..not bunch of snobs like in MOS...and they are better looking and are smartly dressed up....
- Their drinks have a better taste & "kick" to it........it's more VALUE-4-$
- The crowd is pretty rough...esp when they nudge u using their elbows...in MOS..despite the weirdos...the crowd there is much nicer
- The dancefloor area has bouncers who will kick u out if u even attempt ANY form of dirty dancing...which i think prevents more horny fellows from coming to such clubs...i suggest MOS do they same
- The main arena plays AWWWSOME music.......I LOVE..LOVE..LOVE it!!!!! And the dancefloor is just the right size to accommodate the crowd..unlike MOS....
Well......there u have it...............I mean........i surely DID have FUN........but i have to say that my experience at ZOUK was WAYYYYYYYYY more Awwwwsome!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway....having say tat.........i guess tat was the last time tat i had a chance shake my bootie b4 i go in for my surgery....god knows when i can dance tat night away like tat ever again.............And i really wanna thank Deb, Haddad and the rest of the gang for makin it a fun night.....and to cheryl...thank you sooo much for letting me stay over at ya place..............well....tat's all for now........ADIOS Darlins!!!!!!!!!
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 6:33 PM