Friday, March 23, 2007

LiFe LeSs OrDiNaRy....

I have been contemplating real hard as to whether or not i wanted to blog abt today's entry....but ohh wat the hell....better to hear it from the horse's mouth than to have to hear it from a third person ya.....

Well........wait....let me take a deep breath b4 i type this........

Ok...here it goes........ I know that u guys know how much i've been struggling with Uni and ALL the pile of CRAP i had to deal with day in day out.... Now tat has gotten the better of me....so much so that it's affecting my health.... yesh pple!! I've lost alot of weight again and yesh i am on the road to recovery thanx to my parents and close friends.

Anyway that's nt wat i wanted to say........you see the thing is tat I've come to realize tat i've puttin too much pressure on myself to study only to end up getting soo bloody sick. Not just that....i had a heart to heart talk with my daddy dear and he told me tat it's goin to be a real struggle for him to pay for my last few semester of studies. Now tat drove me into a deeper state of worry coz there's more pressure on me....coz i don't want my parents to work day and night just coz of my own self-fulfilments. As such, with the doctor's advise, my parents advise and all the pep-talk i had with my close buddies.....I've decided to put on hold to my pursue Degree course...... So yeap.....there u have it............ I'm abt to venture into the REAL world now....time for me to join the RAT RACE which freaks me out too..... But hey!! i'm a SURVIVOR..... i've been through wayyyy more than any1 my age wld have gone through....

So all i'm praying for now is to land my dream job...which still isn't tat far to reach if i put my heart & soul into finding and workin hard to reach it..........I really hope GOD will be by my side this time.....and i'll need all the moral support i can get from you guys too. I really mean tat..... u're my friends and u guys know me more than i know myself at times....so plzzzzzzz keep a look for me.........

And THANKS to pple like Yixin, Deb, Cheryl, Thiru, Sarala & Stephy for really helping me out during the past couple of days....i know it's been a rough one....so thanx for advising & literally taking care of me.... I LOVE each one of sooo much.... So i hope u'll still be there for me... i know i'm a whole lot to handle and a real piece of work...but hey!! too bad...u're my FRIEND...LOL....

I pray hope the next couple of months will be looking up 4 me..........Good luck to me i guess!! Ciao my love............

WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 6:37 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Oh My Gosh!!

It's been awhile since i've posted anything on my blog....but i do have a valid reason 4 tat.... i was on a 'short' term break...well thnx to all the China pple in my class coz they went back to their hometown for CNY..... and i had benefited from tat break coz i took the chance to really really rest and relax b4 i hit the books again... & damn i wish i cld relive those weeks of vacation man!!

Well tat's coz i'm back in sch again today....& man i tell u............ I don't know WHY am i putting myself through this torture...arghhh!!! Yesh!! studyin in UNI has become more or less a torturous ordeal for me.... But then again...i have to keep tellin myself tat in order to reach my AMBITION.....i MUST therefore endure some PAIN.... mental torture tat is....

I cannot even being to tell u wat a horrible lecturer i have.... I mean it might have been only ONE class so far...but sometimes u can gauge tat type of lectures u're goin to have to endure with.... Why ahhh?? Why is it tat i always face with soooooooooooooooooooo MANY hurdles in my life???!!! I'm on the VERGE of just wavin the white flag already.... really.... i feel like cryin man............ all i want is to pursue my DREAMS.... why does GOD have to make it soo darn difficult for me...........

All i can hope and pray for now is to be able to understand and get good grads for the 2 modules tat i'll be takin this sem......Damn taking Double Majors sure ain't a piece of cake..... Pls pray for me ya'll......... i know ALOT of u have such amazing faith in me..... so all i need now is for u guys to guide and support me....

LORD HAVE SOME MERCY ON ME PLS!!!!!!!!

WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 8:04 PM