Friday, November 25, 2005
NoT iN a GoOd MoOd!!!!!!!!
What does this ALWAYS happen to ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just when i thought i had my parent's anniversary this coming sunday ALL figured out (*wanted to treat em to a posh hotel dinner*).......something HAS to go WRONG!!!!! My parents are at it AGAIN......fighting....and yelling.........ALL becoz i haven't been helpin ard much....and i have been coming back from work late coz i occasionally meet up wif some of my friends or just go window shopping all ALONE............. I mean........come on man!!!!!!!! i need a bloody F#%King life of my own!!!!!!!!!!!I'm like worst off that a freaking 15 yr old kid..........when ever i go out.........i've to be home by 10pm.........like WTF!!!!!!!!! i'm goin to be 20 yrs old okie...............and they still wanna treat me like a BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think i'm worst of then Cinderella........at least she gets to be home by midnight.............!!!!!!!!!!!!I really wanted their anniversary this year to be special....i wanted to give a really good treat........by see...............now how the HECK can i ask em out for dinner when they are in such a bad mood.........actually...........it's ONLY my MUM tat's in a bad mood........my dad's the cool one.....and my bro.........he's the one who doesn't really bother much at all...................and me.....i the one who ALWAYS have to get sooooooooo worked up............GOSH!!!!!!!!!! I'm like a prisoner....who's serving her sentence for some kind of "CAPITAL" punishment tat she never committed!!!!!!!! I hate the feelin of living in fear............it's like now.........once work end......i've to rush back home....do the housework and try to satisfy my mum...........i don't even dare watch the TV..........coz she'll start her DAMN nagging...............I keep crying sliently at work.......i had to control and hold back my tears..............and i had to FAKE a happy face (*which was soooooo hard*).............and i almost fought wif my Closest fren over the SMS.............it's juz tat she asked abt a particular issue....and i told her i wasn't in the right frame of mind to deal with that now.....and i think somehow i rubbed her the wrong way & she wasn't too happy with tat....... i cried EVER more after tat.....i hate arguing..........i don't think ANYONE will ever understand what i'm goin through (*i'm scared tat some of u may even laugh at it*) .......i've only said so little of wat really went on recently.....coz i don't wanna burden any1 wif my sad life...............I hope tat u guys will know this at least...........please understand tat i truly LOVE all of u..........u're like FAMILY....better than family actually............but sometimes......i need some time to deal with my own issues.........i'm not askin much....juz one day wld be good enff..............right now.....i really need to clear my head.................
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 12:47 PM