Tuesday, September 26, 2006
MadNess!!!!
Tuesdays are more of "torture" days for me........ Tat's coz it's my physio-therapy session day.. and man i used to be able to handle it pretty well... but i think this week i've lost control of all my emotions and i just need some serious help....I'm becoming more of an emotional wreck these days........ i need to get out of the house coz being at home every waking moment of the day is really driving me CRAZY.......maybe coz all my life i've been such a hyper-active kid...so much so tat now tat i'm not able to certain stuff...it's driving me into a CAVE WOMEN cum Zombie gal.... i mean i wld be up the WHOLE night just cryin like a baby...... and sometimes i stop myself and ask...why did i just do tat..... weird right??? i know........ u probably think i'm a complete NUT-CASE... it's alright..... i wld have thought u wld have figured tat out a LONG....LONG...time ago..........As i was sayin....my therapy class today was VERY strenuous.... & to make matter worst... i was having my period...first day.... gosh can u imagine the amount of pain i was in....... it was a freakin nightmare!!!!!! And i felt soo light-headed today...i felt like passin out any min.... Oh!!! for the first time in a long time...i actually wore proper footware to my therapy session. U see half the people (*ie the patients*) either come to the place wearin slippers or sports shoe... all this time i was wearing slipper...or rather sandals coz i didn't have a proper sports shoe to use.....and moreover last time....during the inital period after the surgery...even the doctors and therapist advises not to use sports shoes coz of the elevation.... it's alot more easier to control ya walkin when u use slippers or sandals....esp when u are still wearing the leg brace........Anyhow.......i manage to slip on my brand new adidas shoe which felt soo good wearing and doin tat heavy lifting and cross training...... so after the long session today.... i was hopin to meet up for lunch wif a fren of mine tat's workin at SGH.....tat poor gal was really busy and could only have her lunch at a later time......... so i was a lil bumped out...coz i just needed some1 to cheer up...in which my dear darlin fren was very good at doin so... but too bad..... so i thought i'll buy a sandwich back home & eat later coz i felt soo bloated....it was soon after buyin my lunch tat i did the unthinkable.....I wld always take a cab back home from SGH coz it's very tiring to walk down the slope to the bus stop.... but today.........something really SNAPPED in me............ i remember feelin angry abt alot of things tat had been said to me this past week........... so i somehow vented my anger out in a rather peculiar manner....... i decided to walk ALL the way back home from SGH......... and tat wld be three very long bus stops away........ Madness huh??!! i know........ but at that point in time i guess i was already too pumped up....... and so i did just tat.....& after a long walk to reached home..... only to realize abt 3 hrs later tat my body was aching from top to bottom.... and for the first time in a super long time......... i totally knock out...for 5 hours straight....... i mean the min after i had my shower and lunch........i went to bed and slept like a LOG!!!!!!Boy!!!!!!! i really need to bring some BALANCE back in my life.......... and damn my cramps are KILLIN me now......... i think i better drink some warm milk..........okie pple...........i'm outta here.......
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 11:21 PM