Saturday, September 23, 2006
ZomBie MoDe!!!
Damn it!!! for the past mth or so i've not been able to get a good night's rest all..... It's nt coz i slept through the previous day....it's not coz there's some kind of commotion goin on in my hse or at my neighbours... and HELL NO!!! it's not wad ya think it is okie....don't let ya dirty minds stray u FREAKs!!! i know some of u cheeky fellows..... Nah-uh...... it's nothin like tat at all okie.... it's just tat my mind's constantly racing ya know.....like i'm always thinkin abt something....... thinkin abt wat i'm goin to do the next day,week or month....or i'll be thinkin abt my friends..... or it'll be abt my freakin surgeries tat i've had this year alone & all the pain & nightmares will come rushin back...or i'll be thinkin abt my physiotherapy classes and all sorts of crazy shit stuff tat my mind is always conjuring back..........
I feel like some kind of NOCTURNAL creature. I feel soo wide awake at night these days......hiaz.... I really don't know wat to do to put a STOP to this all. It's like i've always got something to worry abt....
Oh yesh pple.... NEWSFLASH!!!!!! Yesh Rena does have alot of stuff to worry abt okie.... it's nt like wad some of u pple think....u guys tend to perceive tat my life is always a bed of roses and i tend to have or get wad ever i want and need.... tat's sure as hell NOT TRUE.... just coz i experience certain level of comfort and luxury doesn't necessarily mean tat i'm living the HIGH-LIFE aite!!! i just hate when a certain few pain in the you-know-where pple keep talkin trash abt me.....let me straighten something out of you once & for all alright... I'M NOT A RICH KID. hear tat!!! I'm NOT.....it's just plain and simple english......get tat to ya freakin BRAIN!!!!Like i said earlier...just coz i tend to have certain brand of clothes, dine at certain places or travel to various countries doesn't count tat i'm rich.......Maybe ya'll think tat way just coz my parents pay for most of my stuff.... it's not coz i asked for it... it's coz i'm not workin at the moment and my parents are the only who can pay for my bills and other stuff.... trust me pple....when i use to work i ALWAYS pay for ALL of my expenses... i really do......And for those of you who think tat i'm just a lazy ass kid sittin and doin nothin at home.....well u're wrong.... i'm infact i'm lookin for a temp job...at least till my sch starts next year.... but it's be really difficult finding a job... it's like 95% of the companies tat i've applied to are ALL askin for bilingual pple..... (*ie. mandarin & english*) ...... i mean it really puzzles me as to why they have such a requirements... i'll totally understand if the firm is some chinese one or if their majority clients are mandarin speakin pple...but the funny thing is tat..tat's not the case.......hiaz....i really don't know wat to say..... pls don't think tat i'm racist or anything.....plzzz u guys sld know me better than tat...... it's just tat u must understand why i feel the way i do.... try putting yaself in my shoes.... it's like u have all the qualifications to get tat certain job but u somehow have to lose out just due to the fact tat u don't speak a certain language.... like wad the hell rite....isn't Singapore suppose to be a racially harmonious society???... well if tat's wad every1's sayin... tat's seriously one hella delusional statement tat we are all forced to believe..... what a pity tat is....... don't u think so........
Alrighty.....i think i've done enff of my word vomit for now..........time for me to make myself happy......thank GOD mum cooked my fav dishes today.... at least i'll have something to be happy abt..................
WoRdS oF tHe InDiAn GeiShA at 7:49 PM